Tuesday, February 18, 2025

New poem

 River


Touch glass, 

Getting my senses by re-figurines, 

Bigger than her letters of love, 

My banned reservoir,

The jugular swirl called touch ,

Branded, re-planed,



Higher Rigs, and jigs, 

Through the glass,


Somebody higher on the list, with a bigger plan, 

So much bigger than anyone would let go of, 

so much bigger than the world would know of, 

Bigger than I would let on, 


Is it my house that I would find?

 

The narrow possibility, and the creator nature,


Touch glass, and you know,

The text of the closed circuit, 

The death of news, 

The better surface,

Chases the outlaws,

Into my house,


(Touch toes, touch the madman


Waiting in the windows,

I can’t say,



The emptiness of my absence,

And the emptiness of the way back,

I Ship it on,

Pinches and punches,

Tensions run,


Lips to laugh,

Rabbit song across my face,

Dries me into fine lines, 


In my past,

So much bad,

Holds the mask,

Unable to last, unable to offer, unable to 

Under a limited collection of human skulls who ask if I am still spinning?

I’m not sure I don’t trust my senses, 

First wake, strange light,

Straight and wide, windows an open eye,

Straight on comes the collide into an open eye, with a better line, 

I’m afraid to do the ghost, just consolidated, sheer ashes,


(Higher on the Bayou, higher on the Bayou,

(Be your basket butter,


Moons on the loose,

Worlds of stillness,

Hey circle of stillness,

Loses the sandman,

My empty eyeball, 

My shrunken head,

Loss of blue halo’s,

No space and no source,


Only a pulse,

I’m timing her ocean currents,

While away, stretching that ocean tide,

To lighten the captivity,

Downsold in a Chasm,

Under cover,

Disappearance follows this charm,


Threads becoming rope,

I follow so closely,

The taste in the mouth of the killer,

Empty teeth,


Not a boy’s club,

No money, and no chips,

A transistor of river debris, 

Cock’s Illicit distention,

Reads the burning,

Into a re-location of fire,

The darkness in a different shade,

Roto-blender, 

Recognition, relocation, remembrance,


The river breathes in lips and mouth’s,

The river dreams in words and ideas,

Feeds the jungle,

The stones and seeds,

Concentration in the weaves,

The weeds and antelopes contrive,

Slipping under the grass and flags and fences,


Poisons slide unseen, under the table,

Left hand right hand, the axis speaks,

But needs a real life, to find eyes and ears,

Carrying hope by fingers and toes,  

Exposed the passive resistor,

In ripples, in pools, in quiet lakes, in raging seas,


A crevasse comes to weep,

Icicles begin their journey,

A million threads and the beginnings and endings, 

Breath of beggars and owners,


Are they for real? Or is it choice coming for me?

Another cover for an empty bed, 

A deeper death

Deeper to path,

Says to the river this is not a race,

There is no space, that was only your protection,

To be on your side, to your surface, 


Breaking the surface tension, go for a ride, 

Lucky, junky, and below the sea, in and out of dust, 


Fever of a night of heat dripping on my tongue, 

Sun of the fire on my face, 

Thermals under my voice, run with the telephone wire, 

A wish and a crier,

Vapor wonder,

Sunlight ponder,

Sly vapors,

Cast a net in the ripples,


When I can’t hold it up any longer, the broken mask, with traces of the past, dance with me at last, and the desperation of the street, made a business of tears,


River gives her name to all the reflections,

Just a weird weave,

Of a thousand streams, 

River runs around my eyes, 

And I fall to live,

A liquid fire,


Saturday, February 15, 2025

m dry tongue

 My dry tongue,

Carries teacups across the boarder,

Full of disguises,

For fortune tellers, 


Seeking the Light House Jubilee,

Where we could all meet,


Once upon a time,

Our apples turned to pears,

 Our pears turned to peaches,

 Our peaches turned to mango honey,

 And mango honey filled the apples,


My dry heart speaks,

In a future of socially given sensory conductions,

Thin wires in new sequence drives,

All my chances, 

Prepared in broken pieces,

In flimsy flashes,

Between the sheets, 

Of twice around infinity,


My dry lips speak,

Like thin clouds to the sea,

Silent words,

With missing letters,

On wings of forgotten histories,

Too big for todays skies,


My unsettled silent words,

With missing letters, tones and subsidies,

To old to account for this tragedy,

Still accent their loans and shades,


For a dry song,

To come alive again,

After rock bottom and sunk,

In Crossways of sauntering light illuminations,

Slanted and intermittent flashing refractions are just too small,

For  any    places in the night,

I never noticed in all the ripples,

The night moves unseen,

At the end, of a tug,


With moon docks drying under my prayer rug,

Dark medias with no one to trust,

Slow the suspension,

To the warmer given,

The half apparition, half circumstance

That carries the wind,

With second hand gloves and a hat,

Paper proxies,

Where I don’t feel safe 

By methods that use cuts and hisses,

To approximate hugs and kisses,


For a fate of listening, to rise again,

In the romance casinos,

Of sticky shoes and answering machines

Approaching zero, with brave jewels boosted by an afterburners fashion infusion,

The touch and go,

In a broken cradle,

Where a secret dies,

But a smile on my corpse will tell,

What’s between those pyramids and stars,

While I hide in the shadows between my parts,

To luxuriate in my own simplification,



Of old skins,

Before I was remade into tiny wires,

Gyroscopes spinning re arrange the stars

Too sharply to remove the habitation to fire,

All the veils for the ceremony go up one by one,

The suffocated glory below,

A stone washed taproot,

For satellites, fiber optics and codings,

Because they’re sexier than the stars hidden leagues,



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And I catch at last,

Hands of mycelia wraps,

Where have you been 

My giant howeed,


Turning the page

Thoe other hand speaks the moon the trounce







Before, When I was made of many thin wires,

And what’s in-between those empty spaces of gapped and gapless in-between what doesn’t show on the radar screen


Webs within webs,    (blown around like tumbleweed)

Slow the suspension,

Half dream,

,   Fading in and out of a donut hole,

Trading in my head,

To carry the wind,

Dark media from the satellitie,


My face turns blue, so far away,

The look recasts the wider net,

To the proof of concepts,

Until thers’ nothing left and I breathe the cool,

No Bach, no pool 

Loud the last call of desert flash,

Always just aftermath,

NO stash,

Already blasted,

Passt any remote access,

My repack.

On out to the the waves,

Of my hands,


Second hand gloves, shoes and hat,

Paper shops,

Proxy savers, 

Mining the land and sky,


I can’t fly,

In single file types,

And ride waves over other sanctuaries,

I got my signals crossed,

A nightshade with its own set of secrets,


Bask of my mind,

Don’t seem right,

Networks of 


Double sided I cannot go,

Near sighted I cannot know,

Recycled synergy,

Sickened effigee,

Momentary interest,

Monetary speed making faster installments and caught in fearful   returns,


Dual Messages Talk


Dual Identities, Dual Messages, 

 I am a huge fan of interdisciplinary studies. I find solving problems by using research and methods from a number of different domains to be of the utmost in beneficial and developmental understanding. It accesses regions of interrelating that encourage greater capacities of relationship and correspondence. This brief introduction associates modern social and cultural research, human development models, modern grief research, and modern psychological research. The keywords in this presentation are; dual identities, double messages, dual messages, double  standards, dual process, dual standards and the like. These kinds of communications, views, methods and outcomes have found their way into areas such as judicial topics to personal relationships to personal identity to navigating grief to intercultural relations and even consumer rights.

      I would like to start with a study from China titled “Dual Identity and Prejudice: The Moderating Role of Group Boundary Permeability.” Front Psychol. 2017; 8: 195. I chose this to begin as recognizing effects of change are so much more easily and readily seen in large networks than smaller more individual networks. For example, the effects of a small temperature change is so much more obvious on a planetary scale than a small changes effect on an individual human. 

 This study describes current research into how to promote the inclusion, welfare and security of incoming migrant groups into China. The study also includes outcomes for gender differences of rural to urban migrants. The study addresses old segregation policies in China from the Cultural Revolution of the late 1940’s and Early 50’s known as the Hokou system. The recent study measures outcomes of a simple information based, educational message that encourages minority groups to identify with their own groups unique heritage and culture while simultaneously emphasizing a superordinate in-group identity, such as Chinese. Research has also demonstrated that inducing a dual identity can promote the majority group members’ positive attitudes and action toward minority members. The results also include effects on group permeability which improve possibilities for upward social mobility for disadvantaged groups, which present threats to the in-group identity of the dominant group. When the boundary is not permeable racism and prejudice are promoted. This demonstrates inducing a dual identity can act in several ways to promote the majority group members’ positive attitudes and action toward minority members. These issues of group identity, group boundary, and group permeability have been studied across many cultures as early as 1979. This Chinese study also includes references to many studies such as Gaertner et al., 1996; González and Brown, 2003, 2006; Guerra et al., 2010; Banfield and Dovidio, 2013; Scheepers et al., 2014 and many more. The simple introduction of including nationalistic subgroup identities with larger supra-ordinate nationalistic identities seems to offer one solution for promoting prosocial, positive, egalitarian, humanitarianism within intergroup relations. This is different from trying to create a new supra-ordinate identity which seems popular with some groups today.

    Humans have always been possessed by the idea of creating their own supra-ordinate groups that surpass the identity of all other groups. A fundamental kind of social hubris. In doing so, they create more problems for themselves by now having less in-group identity members who struggle against all the other more closely identified groups. This puts them at the most severe duality while that is being hidden from them by their new supra ordinate identification. Resulting in a counter-reinforcement of avoidance, enmeshment of their narratives, further dissociation. What other ways can we understand how this process works? We will take a look at this predicament in several other contexts.  

      Mary Frances O’Connor presents a slight revision of the common grief models that are based on an oscillation of loss oriented and return to daily life orientations. I think that is such a poorly constructed distinction that does not even stand as a distinction. That really echoes the larger themes of misrepresentative indicators so all-pervasive and increasing in human activity today, especially in America.

      The dynamic Professor O’Connor focuses on is the dual messages of this person will always be here for me, they are no longer here. That includes dual messages like, I will always have this person to be here for me, and I will always be here for them. And, I will always have this person to take care of, and they will always be here to take care of me. I think the difference between this model and the more conventional or popular model is significant. I will not be addressing the more prolonged types of complicated grief or childhood grief here, as those are special applications. I will just outline these two grief models and focus on the insight of Mary’s model.     

      Professor O’Connor also presents research on the avoidance of grief issues that causes sufferers in grief to encounter more repeated triggers from the immediate environment as well as other environments. This also decreases the opportunities to heal and learn through experiences related to a person's loss. Avoidance, also known as negative reinforcement, increases the fears around the contexts of loss. The sufferer needs to find ways to integrate, relate to, associate with and learn from the losses. 

    CS Lewis the Christian based writer said that grief was the form love takes when a loved one dies. Here we can see another example of a dual message that can be very difficult to assimilate. These kinds of dual contents and contexts are representative of many cultural understandings and perspectives. 

      A lot of literature often focuses on the domination of one view over another. The conquest of an opposing way of thinking, relating or demonized fellow(s). Or again the development of some new supra ordinate understanding will altogether supersede other relations. This is also found in the logical systems of humans known as syllogisms or dialectics. While these systems are no doubt interesting and alluring one might start to question their validity across many applications. The models suggest that in the synthesis stage things lose their original characteristics. I suspect this is largely a misrepresentation by platonification of models.                                                                                          If we look at biological models, which I often suggest as an alternative view and additional basis for examinations, we can observe other kinds of relations and processes. For example, transcytosis the process of identifying and integrating foreign elements into a cell shows a calcium ion, or sodium, can function in many different capacities in different cells but retains it’s characteristics of said ion. This biological model supports the conditions of Dual Identity and Dual Messaging in grief. The griever is asked to consider the two opposing views without necessarily adopting a new view of the situation.                                          Conjugation is another process that has many more applications. This process often changes the composition much more significantly. Another transformation is the states of matter. Which are now found to be basically four. Solid, Liquid, Gas, and Plasma in which the properties of electrons do not conform to the other three. It can also include other properties such as compressibility, pressure, buoyancy, viscosity, and surface tension that do not conform to the other three. We now have significant evidence that there are many other variations and states and may be six or seven or even more. It is likely we will contiue to find more states of existence for compounds and other substances. The conjugation method analogy is more supportive of the syllogism, dialectical process. For my more simplistic metaphors I am just presenting that the models of syllogisms and dialectics do not apply well in the application to Dual Identity and Dual Messaging where no supra-ordinate, or synthesis occurs by a third condition.

Imagine if all consumer product advertisements were required to come with a disclaimer similar to dpharmaceutical adds. Fro exmple, imagine if a fragrance product such as a room freshener or laundry sheet which depicts the products ability to make your entire life a soohting walk on the a sunny quiet beach in the late afternoon, perfect conditions, your feet splashing in gentle waves, with a hollywood star-like beautiful committed lifetime partner, unconditionally embracing and swaying in each others arms as you meandeeffortlessly care free with the breeze that carries your freshness product scent, were required an accordingly informative disclaimer that all your hair might fall out, permanently numb all your senes, make you impotent, and give you a horrible auto immune disease that cripples your body, confining you to a wheel chair in the back ward of some decrepit state hospital, a stale cadaverous seedy scent that reminds you of the fragrance product deleivered with uncaring, abusive care takers. Don’t laugh, it could be you.          

I often wonder if human systems are an adequate measure for humans, or if some other less human-centric understandings might be more valuable to consider to consider for understanding humans. I often use biological models to look at human models. I consider religions to be very human-centric.                                                                        Popular models on grief employ the above mentioned dual structure of loss oriented experience to restoration oriented experience. The restoration is contextualized as returning to daily life. This is simply characterized by a return to typical daily behavior. I question the validity of such a distinction to be able to impart the kind of insight that could be attained by considering the dual messaging of my loved one is here, and the reality that they are not. Is returning to a more normal routine going to provide a way of looking at our changing relationship with our experience? Or is it a reinforcement of the typical avoidance that characterizes much of life in America? An avoidance of deeper reflections promoted and sustained biologically, neurologically, educationally, informationally and socially imposed on one's experience. How does returning to this state, which may be a huge factor in the inability to integrate loss in the first place, going to support a person who is struggling to make sense of their new life. It is never going to return to any resemblance of daily life before that loss anyway. Why emphasize returning to a state of dissociation, isolation, lack of connection and communication that is the source of everyone's dysfunction to begin with? The person's routine is obviously altered and daily activities such as eating, sleeping, working, communicating have been significantly impacted and some of those activities will never be able to return to what they were because the nature of the context is irreversible. There is thus a significant difference between the way these two representations function.                                                                          In another area of representation, MRI’s and especially FMRI’s have been getting a lot of attention in brain studies. These are especially popular with academics, institutionalized educational programs, institutionalized media outlets, and institutionalized promoters of popular social trends trying to make a name, a brand, and a position for themselves. I have never met an actual clinician speak even remotely favorably of insights afforded by such technology. Those have found discordancies of FMRI’s to be inconsistent and not to reveal any clinically relevant identifications of peoples conditions. Clinicians are rare. Institutionalized protocols and trends have replaced clinical knowledge and development. The hallmark of knowledge being trial and error. Not centralized conventions. Another method of misrepresentation and mis-contextualization that has been debated through the ages but now such inverted understandings provided by centralized power govern much of human life. These positions of top down regulation often appear at the end of a civilizations development and perpetuate the downward spiral of death.

      O’Conner examines the shoulda, woulda, coulda, phenomena and associates that with counterfactual misrepresentation. She sees those perspectives as avoidance that perpetuates fear and the related stress response. Adding to other cycles that create barriers of relating, communication and learning. An important quality you don’t often hear in the context of learning is vulnerability. While we are avoiding looking at and misrepresenting our environments we miss the life changing opportunities that are the hallmark and birthright of all humans. 

      As basic human capacities and rights we see a history of human relations that are based on positive human dignity and universal respect. What if we based societies on capacities like vulnerability, dignity, respect and reflection over economic theories and counterfactual principals?

      On ethnic I’d like to point out is that this models also show another way that misrreprerstation occurs is through creating distinctions where there are none and not making distinctions where we should. These often occur due to how boundaries are represented and the learning that takes place by effects of boundaries. This shows the importance of marginalized information and groups. The actions of boundary give the most improatint information for occruances in side the boundaries. This dynamic can be seen in biology by the effects of capillaries on the tissues far beyond the capillary boundary. Studied with Wyn Hoff on vascular properties shows that increasing both ends of the oxygen and carbon dioxide potentials have profound effects on tissues functions and performance.

      I’d like to follow that with a little developmental story beginning with our human prolonged infancy. One of the human dramas begins with a state of complete vulnerability and dependance on one's givers. A state of no almost no organization, with corresponding absent control and almost no sphere of influence. The infant is on the receiving end of most communication and the views of a very small population that may be reduced to one person. Its expression is completely limited to the interpretive skills of its recently significantly decreasing support network that bears little resemblance to the larger historical context of older more extended family systems. 

      This condition intensifies the effects of a concentrated attention, perceptive and behavior of often one human for the first perhaps year of it’s life or more, especially in America. This condition of narrowed relations begin the development from complete vulnerability to societies enforcement of the development of a sense of control. This includes an emphasis on maintaining control and in effect maintaining domination characterized by an aggressive outlook as to what that development should look like and how it should function. While the importance of vulnerability to learning and communicating is systematically eliminated. 

The most common dual messaging I heard in my professional life was along the lines of; why do I feel like shit and my doctor tells me I’m fine. That dual message is probably contributing as much stress for the patient as their own pathologies, as it appears to have no reconcilable messaging. The structure of the dual message is also highly problematic and reinforced by the rigid and narrow position of the patients conventional doctor. Here we can easily observe the rigid role and position of the conventional doctor and see how this rigid role reinforces the doctors highly selective methodology ignoring much of the patients presenting symptomology, history, and worst of all ignoring much of the easily detectable laboratory data. This is promoted by the pharmaceutical industries disregard of associated chemistry and biology left out in the production of pharmaceutical drugs. These two reinforce each other stigmatizations. Here the dynamic of narrow views and resulting enmeshment with those views due to the lack of acknowledgment of a wider completely valid context. This plays out in the above scenarios and all aspects of human experience. Misrepresentation always results from an exclusion of more complete evidence inherent to the conditions.  

      In this brief introduction to some ideas on characterizing and addressing the severely depraved state of human relations in America today. We see a need to address complicated polarized conditions that exist on many levels of human experience. Dual messages are so all pervasive, from fantastical, magical claims of products that do not do what the producers claims to support in dual message dynamics from the wider circles of education, media, politics and economics that are part and parcel of the rest of personal human relational needs, and community infrastructure needs. The narrowing conditions of communication, connection, context with reinforced rigid roles and enmeshment that blinds people in and to their positions. The irreconcilable nature of such conditions are apparent in socio-economic problems such as a particular groups sense of isolated nationalistic interest, as in the case of affirmative action have been identified as failures by researchers such as Thomas Powell in world wide studies.  I continue to address recalcitrant conditions of misrepresentations and other methods of perpetuating these irreconcilable dual states. I suggest that an educational and informational program along with a compassionate guide to navigating and implementing the information is effective for change. Secondarily, and in accordance with the above information, approaches such as visualization, various play and role playing techniques, professional EMDR approaches, and meditations on loving kindness, compassion, joy, equanimity may be used as accepted and in agreement with the patient's interests, temperaments and dispositions. 

Prolonged grief, compicated cgiref, tramiatic greif lead to a feeling of being seperate, isoalted, dissociated from others in an irretrievable state of loss that includes a broader context than the loss itself. This often includes a loss of other relationships and networks than can include other personal relations such as family members, relatives, professsinal, other social networks, as well as personal interests and more. This is like a domino effect of loss that is so prevalent in society today. The condition of isolation in this widening scoop of multipliplied losses is so serious that the surgeon generals researchers released a report last year on the breakdown of communication, connetion, and resulting state of loneliness that now threatens the very fabric of our societal existance in a way that must be recognized as one of the most serious, immediate threats to survival of life in a human context. Which I suggest has largely been more obscured and has not yet been revealed in many ways.

Other interests besides human interests have obscured the human domiain. I explore this more in economic discussions.

      Some studies include disasters like Hurricane Katrina, and the recent Covid pandemic in studies on grief. I think this another context altogher and should not be included with the more common loss of a loved one that triggers the kind of grief in that context. Some people refer to those contexts as Black Swan events. They are not. Black Swan events are those that stem from a small change that produces an exponential effect. I think more research is needed to investigate the possible differences of such contexts. 


All great leaders have a skill for bringing together disparite views. As did Barak Obama. They address the need for greater understandings that go beyond the myopic interests represent by nationalistic ideologies.


I like to analyze things in terms of different perspectives from different  domains. Analyzing something with different perspectives within one domain is known as corroborative evidence, which is another misrperentaiion of human thinking. As Nassims title of his second book demonstrates; finding another white swan in another place is not more evidence that all swans are white, which was a common belfifge for long time. Looking at things in other domains is a compare and contrast model. This results in new referecings. 

It is easier to see differences and the effects of diferences in large models than small moe\dels. As demonstrated in the income, and termperatpre videos. 


Similar ideas in individual landscape has been describe by dual messages and dual standards. I bring in the research on grief to look at this.  I try my best to keep all my discussions on observable inputs and outputs. Nassim Taleb again provides some excellent insights. One of the most cited researchers by Taleb is Daiel Kahaneman commonly associated with the journal of behavioral decision making and journal of risk and uncertainty. 

If this sounds a little technical, your right, it is. and learning these skills can be difficult. They ask us to go beyond our usual and comfortable means of referencing and understating and challenge us to enter a world of understanding we may have little experience with.



So how can we apply permeable boundaries to such a rigidly designed

and myopically maintained structure as a Western mind? See the central peripheral video as it presents a foundational concept for understanding how humans consistently pick the worst indicators for what they think they are seeing.



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Low tide poem

Low tide poem

Some of my poems follow a fractal like format, like nature and so forth.   Also known as the law of scale invariability, the law of octaves, the hermetic view of “as above so below.” And a loose Fibonacci like sequence.

    This also features the pattern of variations on a theme.  Also like a fractal, and so on.  

    Like waves on a beach, the scales and forms are revised and revisited, transformations ensue, a story, of sorts, is sort of told.  

    My own personal touch is that of dream like boundary-less-ness.  The laws of most peoples’ daily reality do not apply here.   

    Welcome, and fare thee well sisters and brothers.

    

Low tide no longer floats the look in my eyes.  They splash like……. in little pools.

     When the tide is low tide, it reveals stuff that is usually covered up by “the deep.”  Leaving little pools of ….. codes.   Tears.      One for each empty hole, for each pool, each sense……… is one of those little pools.      

    This first stanza is the basic theme.  The hardest thing for people to understand is that there is nothing new after this.  Keeping this little theme in mind is hard for people.  Staying with the theme, much less understanding the theme requires a state of concentration that most people find difficult.  


(That is why I am writing my meditation book, to give people a simple method to understand concentration in a practical useful method, which is not given by most meditation teachers, if any.  Kind of like exercise, pilates, yoga, etc. strengthens certain kinds of muscle combinations, but does not help you stand up.   or walk, or bend down, or lift objects, or move your  body in any useful way. It is mostly useless.  And actually nonproductive, once you understand how the body, (and mind, and nature, really works.) which is why I developed my exercise program.  And write.  Anyway. Back to the poem, which represents the true nature of reality.  )


    So, the basic theme, 

    Low tide…….The introductory little stanza itself is a little repetitive cycle, like each stanza, like the entire poem.  This is the nature of a fractal.  This is the nature of existence.  

    The next stanza.  X rays.  X rays reveal things.  Like low tide does.  Like tears do.                                                                                                                                              The little repetitive cycle is repeating, revising, reformulating, layering and re layering into more (complex) forms that are really just reformulations.  

    Blood shot paraphrased……….revealed, again, by tears, that leave bloodshot eyes, here reimagined as “paraphrased passport propositions.”  Those are the eyes, the frames,  the pools.   Re-visitations, re imaginations, waves of the ocean, over and over, crashing on the beach, re arranging, reformulating.

    Valves leak,  eyes,  pools, again, revisited.  No new ideas.  Just re imagined.  Not enough for me.   They don’t fit in the frame, like the x rays, like the tears.  See?

    Not in the trembling screen, or the doorway,   …….. like the pools, like my eyes.  


(It is so ridiculously repetitive it escapes most people’s ability to just stay with it.

There are no new ideas.  There is really only one idea present in the universe.  One story.  Told over and over, in culture after culture, movie after movie, song after song, portrait after portrait, painting after painting.  Being rediscovered, moment after moment, in another re imagined way.  Anyway, back to the poem)


Light years below…etc…. are the pools again,  re imagined into red shifts etc.


Senses are all I have…..  lines around my resistance…..the frames, the pools again.


The code spreads far and wide…….three sides,  this gets explained in more detail in my upcoming book.  Why three?  The trinity.  Life is made of protein, consumes protein, and makes protein.  Just like the stars.  Recycling themselves. Like the father, son and Holy Ghost.  Re arranged in different forms.  As most of you know, there are no new stories.  The same story has been told and re told over and over, in every culture, in every century, since time immemorial.  

    Three little toys the west was won.  My favorite line.  Says it all again.  The west, the new land, the new story.   Conquered.  Like obstacles, evil. By your “efforts”   A real satirical parody on popular culture.   It will be explained more in my book, if you need it.  

    The shoreline rising and falling…..the shoreline, just like the tide, rises and falls. 

Veils…..the pools, 

     Claws, teeth, fear……. are the re imagined trinity.

    Forces in a soft machine……are the tears, pools,   re imagined in; circles of ringing bells, wells, stormy windows, clues, etc.

    Working the bends……pools, tears, again,,,

    Where the raven sings,………..re imagined  pools, tears,   sorry, it is so ridiculously repetitive, just like a fractal, and existence, but the variations keep us interested, keep us thinking, there is something unique happening here.  Like….  Us.  The greatest illusion of all.

    A giant leap……..the piper at the gate,  is the re imagined…raven, and the tears again.

    To save the silk palace…..the frame, the pools

    Unwinding snowflakes,……………….i hate to say it,,,, the tears…..

    Dolls house,   the frame, the tears, you know, the interesting thing IS that there are all sorts of intrinsic, hidden, implied meanings behind all these little variations.  That is what really makes it bearable.  Or interesting if you will.  Thanks.   Within the meanings of the variations of say,  the tears,  re imagined as the raven for example,  the tears represent those things we may not understand.  

We may not understand, or fear, like our feelings.  They are bigger than us.    They don’t fit in the frame.  They are like X rays into some other dimension of our being.   Such is the raven,  the devil,  the dolls’ house, hell.  They represent all those things were overwhelming to us.  That have now become all the conditioned things we are afraid of.   Anything we don’t understand.  Anything different than what we have been conditioned to accept.  Like other people, from other families, from other cultures, form other religions, from other races, from other sexes, from whatever “other” you have not really accepted that is really the “other” part of yourself that you have not met yet.            

    

    The dream of my imaginary friend……the part of myself I have not met yet.  That “dreams” my hopes, and nightmares.   Heaven and hell.


    I lost my eyes.  Shapeless at last.     The savior.    Full of mixed messages, because it contains the entire unknown.   Imperceptible forms.  Slips etc….

Balances the fame, fortune, hunger……the trinity again………  burning slower than justice,,,,,it just defies our understanding.                  


Monday, January 20, 2025

After Prufrock, ( this is an exceprt from my poem "when I am the silence." )

 After Prufrock, ( this is an exceprt from my poem "when I am the silence." )

Into the river, ghostly,

Of…,  in…,      Microdots,

The…,     Soft telling, of the story, 

Settling into Chupidero,

The soft sacrament, the hard questions;

Does the road match my load?

Betrayed, hidden, and silent,

Does the name I have match my form?

In the rain, when my voice changes?

Exiled in abandonments to drink the dark waters off paper, rock and scissors,


To learn how to play dead,

Underwater,

In subtle fractures sonic booms,

In tired shellacs that tremble the loom,

So the action lasts,

All the way back to Sausalito again,

Where I began making up sudden nights in tight membranes,

To go up the hill,

With the touch and go of a polypropylene time tower,


Where the passage declares,

The number of my hairs,

That I never match,

Because,

In another story,

I was a burning star,

With a million broken, dangerous immigrants, with no arms or legs, 

We wear fire for a charm to the sky,


At night our hands are full of shrunken alphabets,

Softer than the devils tongue,

Air cubero,


The black night thieves of the fire box, breathing bones to space,

In another set of eyes that do not radiate,

That’s where I learned the difference between my savings and loans,


Where I’m thirsty now,

For something else,

And she burns a bluer mass where I don’t last,


She comes out over the hill,

Shamed and loud,

Over the sky,

The inverse equation,

Behind the leaves and soil,

Through the earth, 

Another urn yearns,

I knew right at first, 

This could get worse,


I fed the fire, not the liar,

Stone headed up steep steps,

The tension grows,

There’s no boundary, 

For a blind monkey,

With a snake and a flame,

A ball and chain,


A good mention in the flash,   

Is all I’ll ever have,

So I try to maintain some cash flow while I can,

Play it safe, 

I know it won’t last,

To the moon and back,

Or past the continental crash,

Of fault lines and Kashmir’s loops and laughs,


Seen like small tasks,

To put on a graph,

Or some more sensual grasp,


For the search for the fantasy to continue with the movement of cloud hands,

Of bank ledgers meeting the drifting sand,

I took a different pace in the chase,

For a more delicate taste,


At the bottom of a well, 

In patterns of light and dancing shadows,

A great wet spider webs circling in cactus’ perfect spirals,


Is that a bird in that rivers swirl?

A rose in motion,

I can’t find her in the gifts she brings to the witness,


Singing, the flying kisses, 

Gentlest of wishes,

To beset the world,

And to liquefy the heart's sanctuary of all therein;

A five year old girl collecting firewood to sell at the market,

She will be cold tonight, but hopefully not hungry,

The most precious being that ever lived,

Making the kinds of trades most people do to get through a long night,


In her little handmade boots, parka and a little string to bundle sticks together and carry them on her back, 

She may be sold herself,

As a snow angel, before she melts,

Into little flowers and little worms, 


While I watch from my cell phone,

Amidst searches for the latest fashion,

A new heavenly flavor of ice cream,

And the flashing ticker tape scams,

Promising vacations to Switzerland, with secret funds in the new currency exchange,

And Thailand, with a younger face to freshen the choice?

Which one?

Ugh, My life is difficult,


While in lost rivers, or a black box, or a burning bush, or a well, or a lens in the bucket to evermore,

The truth’s of thousand tentacles,

That I never knew,

Ten thousand waves,

That I have never felt one of,


But in return,

If I listen carefully enough,

I know another sanctuary that believes in me first,

Not the road runner cartoon,

Playing games with two coyotes, god and the devil,

Buddha and enlightenment,


In the eyes of the man on the moon,

Are tears in the delicate balance of trial and error,


Touching on forgiveness,

Over and over again,


In strings, foot prints, first blooms,

Something from long ago,

The empty black box of night is breathing roots, colors and smells, and stars,

Bathing in rain drops,

Born again in dew drops,


In beating wings that carry children to the…. 

Wait are those arms and legs? Mine and your’s?

Climbing the tree? The burning bush? Into a cocoon? A coffin? A chrysalis?


Something else breathes my breath into a different fire,

Where I could be made of straw,

And in my heart, a tigers claw,

And the fearr they could not cut out,

Grew other forms of force, flex and flux,

To let the shadows come to me with a message of love, death and buzz, 


Another breath is breathing with the stars,

In a song that was never heard before,


For when a child falls in the forest of grasses,

Does anybody hear?

When the windows all turn cold,

Does anybody know?

What the windows didn’t show,

The breathing of a dead star,

Slipping in and out of scales of the night sky,


No screams were ever heard on the street, or in the shadows, or in the heartbeat,

Where waiting safely, with no guarantee,

 Quiet, became the host of bones,  

 While Dirga’s eyes touched my screen,

The larger meter, listening,

To screams of children, and nun’s in robes,

It never ends, so let us go,

YES, NOW. LET US GO,

Let us go,,,,

Disappearing, 

You and I,

Following the folding and unfolding of the universe in days and nights, 

Following wrinkles in a feather for a blue sky for a chance for a chartreuse serenade to float the tide on a broken wing

Following a stray wind that empties our lips, and we meet again in shivers threading the textures of our disappearing, passing colors through season to re-make the hinge, 

With wild Amazon blues from the deepest inner circle of early morning iris’ re-emergence, 

 

Let us go disappearing you and I, through the blue frosted edges of lavender tinted honeysuckle and lilac, gather each other up again in the dark fire, in the thinness of silhouettes hidden slip, fishing for northern lights and longer moments to know the song of rarefied lace,   

 

Let us go disappearing in passport pillow talk, scratching around the receiver for words to uncover the deal we made behind our backs,  

 

To go disappearing together, on the endless bed of radio waves where I’m not afraid to let you go for long moments while I dream of your subtle bodies taste, another application of pi, the way breathing always connects the inner radiance between us,  

 

Let us go disappearing in the glow of reflected after light draping over the table, the plants, our skin, on the wall, a little chamber of preciously late, gentleness, the resolution of a day, particles participating in the longest dream, a soft knowing of presence. 

 

Let us go disappearing you and I, in the smaller and smaller numbers of new interpretations of zero, let them moult with the autumn leaves, that sing for the believer, optical disturbances retrieve clues to unbuttoning cream in the sunrise.  


Let us go disappearing, you and I ,

In winter pale interludes, 

The way a shadow fades over a silhouette,

Where we won’t intrude, 

With a reason or a tug, 

Or for the forth edition begin alone, 

And did not forget, 

The stillness is behind all of it, to let us go disappearing,

You and I



Sunday, March 31, 2024

History, education, sharing, value

 My history professor is dyslexic. He continually claims that understanding the past is the best method for understanding the present, and making predictions. He continually studies more and more selective material about the past. The history of the recent civilization as it is captured by some historians in a selective presentation of the past. It’s the best we can do. I draw a similarity with archeologists who study fossils. They will readily admit that a small fraction (maybe 1%) of past living organisms and materials get fossilized. This is a poor representation, but most archeologists are aware of this and put those frames of reference into accordingly localized conditions. Some do not and I reel in anguish at the over generalization that confuses cultures with other that bare no resemblance to each other. One notable theorist surmised that older cultures did not exercise because he happened to come across on that did not exercise. He concluded that exercise was not performed because it represented a water of precious calories. He simply excluded the fact that the entire asian continent and sub continents where daily exercises of various kinds is a morning standard formulary of behaviors. For billions of people and has been for many thousands of years. Whether its tai chi, martial arts, yoga of many hundreds of varieties developed over longer than most Americans and their religious predecessors can conceive of. He also was not able to include more biological impacts of exercise that stabilizes blood sugar, improve adrenal and other hormone adaptivity, protect against cardio vascular diseases, and is virtually a panacea for a healthy life. These kinds of oversights and mis-representations make up the bulk of todays human perception, cognition and subsequent behavior.  

Which do you think you know more about, the past, present or future? Does the past inform the present or obscure it? 


Does the past increase your options, identifiers, indicators, etc for the present/future or restrict them? Do you have more and more idnentifiers for the present by looking through the past? or does the past fix the way you understand the present leaving out the important datas?


History doesn’t not guarantee a better understanding of anything. It notable does reduce your odds for understand by the conventions views, methods and ideologies of historians. It is unlikely that you will even understand the past by studying history.


You have to understand the present from the point of view of the present. By including present conditions I mean including as wide a range of perspectives as you can. This is a creative process because you are looking to understand things in terms and ways that did not exist before the conditions of today. That is the present. These conditons inform the past, not vice versa.


This includes a kind of creativity.  You have to create understanding by including a wider scope of perspectives. 




Basing things on the past requires that you are going to extend the. Circumstance of the past to the present in a linear, symmetrical way. It has been well established that the universe does not function in linearities and symmetries. That is one of the kinds of delusional mis-representations that have produced massive errors in the entire history of humans and is occurring with worse effects than ever today, and will continue to degenerate.

Those linear processes represent the kinds of idealism that continues to spiral peoples behaviors into more simplistic group and more oppositional behaviors. 


How about the conditions of the future. Do we know that much more about the conditions in the past, present or future? Which ones do we know more about in terms of the conditions that make them up. 

A much more individualized approach.  


Understanding the wider contexts and conditions involved in different cultures in different times of history does not just mean entertaining thought about the things that occurred. The understanding is not the same as knowing events that occurred. The events represent the outer forms of what, where, when. At some point we must concede that a more inner representation is essential to our understanding. 



The combination of narrow views of our world as well as narrow inner depictions of our world is the most misleading way to look at anything.


  Another feature is to try to understand the conditions and how the conditions have changed rather than the occurrences. To understand how conditions have changed for the inner experience and the outer.

The historical view that history informs the present is backwards, it reinforces putting things into prepackaged narrow understanding that only reinforce themselves.


Professor Gobbledygook mixes up as things were and as things are. He mixes up his understanding with the understanding he has been taught. His own understanding has been displaced by the books he reads. He likes the game “war” because it simplifies contexts down to scopes that fit in with his understanding. 

When the civilizations collapsed he looks to indicators like education, economics, not the relational contexts of ideologies as areas of displacement of human characteristics and homophylic (preference for likenesses and familiarities) properties that reveal what kinds of relating and perception that determined the resulting failure of a society.


Understanding things in terms of the past or in newer terms of the present requires creativity. The ability to use words and ideas in new ways. These characteristics are more inclusive, do not break down into separate, discrete packets of data. They are more flexible and present greater networks of understanding. 


The prepackaged approach is also the historical approach.



History

The development of new ideas. New ideas often do not have a place immediately. Things ideas are slowly integrated. They are integrated by how people can relate them to the past ideas. As society developed an agreement around what things are, and how what things that are new will be given a place. Their new idea and understanding of the idea will be modified, interpreted to fit into the past understandings and contexts. It will be decided by the commonality of ideas. The commonality always represents the most simplistic, the most easily recognized, easiest to understand, most useful to that common way of understanding and thinking. The lowest common denominator will be the outcome, and hence, few people will understand the idea as it was when the idea was first developed. Or as the event occurred. That context will be replaced by the context of commonality. 

A good example is when readers of Nassim Taleb’s Black Swan offer interpretations that are not at all a representation of Nassim’s Idea. That idea was juxtaposed with other events that are not demonstrative of a black swan event. 


This is the classic case of linguistic displacement. We could also call it ideological displacement. 

The only way to understand the idea as it was original put forth is to be able to recognize it in the spirit of originality in which it occurred. The spirit of open minded discovery. The spirit of unbiased inquiry. The spirit of creativity combined with analysis. Every scientists aspiration. 


ANTHROPOLOGY, AGRICULTURE LED TO GROUP THINK

The shift form hunter gatherer to agricultural societies was one of the largest shifts to social reinforced perceiving, feeling and thinking. Larger groups living together were part of the agricultural process. Agriculture makes little sense because it is much more labor intensity that hunter gatherer. It provided a greater sense of security, safety an simplistic easy to follow living. As Nassim correctly identifies such group think; “A convenient way to die.” Group think is socialized thinking. It is represented by a correspondence to a centrally modulated system. That central modulation replaces diversity. This is assisted by a strong reinforcement of conformity. Conformity to narrower models of thinking and relating. This is indispensable. As more peripheral characteristics get replaced by simpler centralized ones. More rigid forms. More centralized understandings in society at large. This entails that the more centralized understandings become forever more removed from contexts of the real world. This is because the more peripheral, the new, the spontaneous, the random, the creative, etc. are closer to the nature of life’s and the universes functionalities. They become idealized forms of life.

Large groups of narrow, conformed, centralized, rigid, codified processes are a mechanism of displacement of greater values and functionality.


The idea of the various supernatural forces as a causative has always been a feature of early humans. The supernatural as a cause of events, becomes more rigid, more centrally codified, more conformed into narrower accepted, approved and simplified models that inform, perceptions and behaviors. Central codification, removed from empirical understandings of the real world.  


More narrowly identified, socially reduced parameters into a more simplistic and reductive by a smaller sampling of things, reduced to a more singular one. Resulting in god and money which are fairly synonymous. 


Homophyly, more similar natured people arise that reinforces the simplistic over and over. Continuously narrowed. 


These eventually led to some groups developing an even more centralized position that was based on a power hierarchy. 

Which had to maintain its power. Had to reinforce its power. Addictions control, becoming more the central feature of human life. 


A constant reductions to the nature of life. As in the people so on planet and vic a versa. A holism of multiplicities that we will never escape by our delusional simplifications. 


(One of the ways to study this process is through an analysis of percolation theory. How would we analyze the reduction of pathways. Compared to the multiplication of pathways. The dominance of less creative thinking by a group more organized by homophily.

Mathematically we develop the formula by the design that increase in understanding is represented by more integrated networks as P=1. Possible link to link is 1. A break in the interconnectivity is presented by P-1. Possible link to link is -1. Values closer to 1 represent more relationship and values closer to zero represent lesser integration. We gather data through word usage and idea usage by individuals and identify them into the groups of less creative and more creative. We can then analyze the results in terms of graphs representing the networking of the groups. The problems arise in the interpretations of data fields. (Gaussian) We are applying this idea to groups investigating a particular field, such as historians. An example of such an application is found in the PNAS report “Flexibility of thought in high creative individuals represented by percolation analysis.” https://www.pnas.org/doi/10.1073/pnas.1717362115


Education and interest. I think diversity of materials is essential for interest to develop. Diversity of the structure, structure s, audio visual approaches, other non structural components, A diverse re presentation, ways of represent actions representations, with a variety of actions,

Break up an understanding into smaller questions.




Multiple choice should be arranged according to sequence of questions linked together. Not just random questions here and there. This develops more organized step by step thinking made of small steps. 


Test’s could be arranged in ways that organize thinking into more interrelated steps. These smaller steps show up in all kinds of research. See above research as well as cellular feedback concepts;( https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2680159/ )


Then there's the use of re using old teaching materials rather than creating or finding other sources for more modern material. Shore more creative material


How can we encourage positive states interest a creativity, as a broader more flexible use of words and ideas. A wider representation and scope of word an idea usage. 

Through word  and idea play. 


Many assignments are given as a prescription or a form that your writing should fit into. Is the same process as people fitting into social conditions and conformity.

Conformity is more important to them than there own value.


This is also found in using a prompt for assignments. 


Education also does not stress developing explanations in writing. Just expressing an opinion that is close to the teacher opinion is all that is required. Developing the ways of organizing and illustrating material is not stressed.

This is exemplified by such instructions as “Before you begin, decide on the type of essay you want to write. This is a hinderance to innovation. Trying to create or decide on an outcome to develop first is a sure way to avoid innovation. Another form of prepackaged operations. This may work well for a shopping list but not so good for communicating with someone you have never met. 


These processes interfere with recognizing different conditions and making a choice based on being able recognize two, or more in reality, different conditions. There is little analytical decision making process and being able to make decision and developing methods for how that is done. All representative of creative processes.

The degrades to process of discerning between sets of ideas, their understanding and presentation. 



Education promotes the ongoing development and movement towards shallow superficial understandings that represent and reinforce conformity. 


Education  reinforces fitting into an outer false model, method, form.

Putting options into a box,

What you should do with your content.

Told what to do and how to do it. 


Filling another persons agenda,

Fitting into another personas agenda. 


Outer form as an assignment to complete. Or an outer form of a job, very little self value, little self developed and oriented interest.


Areas of inner value, personal access, personal relationships are reduced.


Society has degraded the personal relationship such that there is very little relational developmental processes. Idealism discourages creativity through lack of idea play. Singular proofs, one dimensional relationships.


(Resulting in the smell of modern society.) 


JUNG

Jung’s early ideas comprised by a system based on introverted, extroverted, male, female. This later evolved into the word persona for the first two categories. Outer persona and inner persona.

The outer persona, Jung, job, money, house, hair, makeup, clothes, but not just clothes, the right clothes, the right hair the right makeup. the outer has become prescriptive approaches. We base much on it. Race, skin, hair, much meaning, much value. 

Sharing falls into this prescriptive, shallow, narrow prescriptive method based on outer material based culture.


Evidence of sharing form other cultures. The banana example.

Communal Family. The context of family is different

The banana example. 

How clean a culture is.

Everyone having a bandanna, not one person having a banana and sharing 

The rescue developed through sharing is trust, partnership, relationship, inner values. The come from this kind of sharing not from other ways of sharing. Not from pre-scripted ideas of what sharing means. How sharing is done. Who does the sharing. Who has the things to share. No, it’s much more community minded. How does the community function.


Sharing in the community and sharing between individuals was also in a wider context. Children were taught importance of sharing in this way. A banana was given to each child to share. So first of all every has something to share. So the object being shared was not the important characteristic of sharing. Sharing has a broader purpose. A broader context and meaning. Another kind of value.


Sharing was about connection. The importance of sharing is the development of inter-relatedness. Strengthening inter connectedness. We exist together. Not by the things we share but by the sense of togetherness. By our sense of community we start to determine how to function. We learn what is important. How to recognize context with value and meaning that is the basis of our relationships, community and within the context of life around us. 


Aggressive or   enforced          egalitarianism is another example of how communities operated. Today over consumption is a given in society. It is more than accepted, it is encouraged. It is not recognized as a devaluing principal. An addiction. A loss of context and relationship.  

Another example is how someone was treated in they were over hunting. The community said the person was “insulting the meat.” They were shunned from the community. Which meant that when the person ran low on resources they would find it harder to survive. So the importance of sharing had real consequences as well. But that was only a part of the nature of sharing.

The communal sharing of many things influenced a more egalitarian society. But it can not be referenced outside of al those many brand conditions and considerations.



Communal Family. The context of family is different. Children are raised by a wider group of people. They grow up easily referring to a Mom or Dad who are not their actual biological parent. They may emigrate out of the group at some time and find it easy to make other significant bonds within other groups they may attach to as easily as any Mom or Dad. Or brother or sister for that matter.



Todays sense of trust in other has a much smaller context. Degraded by many social constructs. Outer socially determined interests. By business, government, media, educators, religions, that created the outer shell. One of the keys to understanding this is the prepackaged, pre-scripted, protocols of idealistic approaches.